Office Blues

One of the things that I need to accomplish now is to be strict and stick to my decisions. When I first stepped into this office, I have already known that they will be many people who will come to me with their own versions of stories. More of this will come now that I have taken over my colleagues place. As time passed by, I came to know that these stories may not be what they seem. As my colleague taught me, I only had to listen and forget. Any decisions I make should not be influenced by those stories and be neutral. Ya that's right. If I were to try to influence someone, of course I will be twisting the truth here and there.. and make the situation in favour of me. So the keyword here is make the decisions wisely and have good self-confidence. (Believe my own worth more than what others say.) And of course do not worry too much about others opinions and views of me as long as I think I am doing the right thing. Well, actually I am doing just that since the start.. Just that need to focus more and strengthen my mental strength now that I have much more responsibily on my shoulders.

Does this mean I will be maintaining an iron fist? Well, no.. First of all, I welcome opinions and views of others.. But definately the final decision is in my hands. Secondly, my boss can always override my decisions.. hehe..

Another thing I would like to stress to myself (and maybe others?).. For me, there is always only black or white.. there is never such thing as gray in my dictionary. That's why for me, there can only be do it.. or don't.. there's no such thing as try. That's why also, whenever I hear other people saying things like: What to do (the worst thing I ever heard!).. Try lo.. etc.. I become very obsessed. If you want to do it.. then do it.. If not, no point to say those things.. It's like saying "I try to eat the apple" ??!! Try to eat the apple? You want then you put your mouth there and bite it.. If not, then throw it to the floor.. What the heck is try to eat it??? The same case for all other things in life.. Try to do it? What is the meaning of this phrase? Is there any forcefield stopping you from doing it? any invisible hand making you paralysed and unable to do it, such that need to "try"? The answer I think is very clear.. It's only the person's own will not to do it..

Finally come to an end to this article.. Strayed too much from what I originally want to remind myself: Take myself to the next level: Be braver and make the correct decisions and be more transparent (transparent to others..) .. :)